Testimony
"I knew that I could not break the hold drugs had on my life."
It's amazing how time flies even when we're not having fun or not having fun the way we used to. Hi! My name is "Chris" and it's almost been a year here at the San Diego Rescue Mission and I am elated to know that I am getting ready to graduate in a few days. Thinking back to the first few days of being in the Mission, I remember saying to myself there would be no way I would be able to stay for a year. Of course being court ordered I really didn't have any say in the matter.
I had put myself in this predicament through the choices I had made during the course of about 8 or 9 months. It was at the beginning of this downward spiral that I realized what the outcome was going to be. This wasn't my first or second time going down this road. I had gone through similar times in my life when I would try to pull myself out of the muck. I would stop doing drugs, get back on the right path for a few years but somehow, somewhere things would fall apart and the whole pattern would start again.
At the beginning of this last spiral I tried to stop doing drugs, tried to go out and get a job before they repossessed my car, and evicted me from my apartment but the drugs had such a hold on me. I knew that I could not break the hold drugs had on my life. As I look back there were probably only a few days of several months when I didn't do drugs. My habit had escalated to daily use, and would last for days or weeks without food or sleep. I feel now that I had actually lost hope in being able to break this cycle. This went on until it couldn't go on any longer. I had prolonged my sentence by getting several warrants from not complying with the court, which made my sentence longer and harder.
Finally, I submitted to I guess what you can call God or the Holy Spirit and had my friend bring me to the San Diego Rescue Mission. It was one day before the absolute last day I had to comply with my court order and like I said I didn't think I was going to make it. Only through God's tender mercy and His everlasting grace have I been here at the Mission and made it to the point of graduation. It isn't anything I've done except submit to the will of God. I realize now that I can't do anything without His love, His power, His mercy and I thank God everyday for giving me this opportunity to live a life He wants me to. Trust me it hasn't been easy but nobody said it would be. Life is a day-to-day thing that through the love of Jesus Christ we can do all things. And no matter what we have done in our past God still chooses to love us. And that in itself is amazing. No matter how much we have sinned He still loves me. I thank you Lord and love you with all my heart.
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